Monday, January 16, 2012

January. Cold. Endless.Gray. Solitariness.

Midway point for the longest month of the least for me. I have had a chest flu. Work is slow. Knitting, knitting and more knitting for me. At least I have been able to turn a hobby into a money maker. Some photographer friends of mine are starting to buy my knits.

D bought me a car starter for Christmas, and I am loving every minute of it! I hate the cold.

E celebrated 21 yrs on the 6th. We had a great time. H is next. She is the big 18 on the 26th. We have not decided what we will be doing yet.

Time marches on. I wonder at times where it goes, and at times wonder if it could go much slower. I feel old, and miss my kids even when I am in the same room with them. I think Mother Nature is finally catching up with me and my emotions. It seems as if with my first 3 kids officially grown there is this great unknown for me. I am scared. I don't know how to be without them. I love W and J, but I don't know how to be me without J, E, and H. I think about losing my mom and it takes my breath. I miss my sister. She is working full time now and has one in college. So many changes so very fast, and all at the same time. Has me turned upside down. Such is life. Need to catch up on my photo editing....will back track later. Lots of good stuff to post.

Wednesday, January 4, 2012

Santa AND the Tooth Fairy

Christmas 2011 has come and gone. All in all it was very nice. The boys have turned a corner and we can now go to my sisters house and I can acutally relax and visit. They head for the basement and play.

The boys got a Wii this year and it is all they want to play. W finally went back to school today. I hated to see him go. I am now living for Easter break lol.

On Christmas Eve W came to us and said "I think I have a wiggly tooth" and he did. Flash forward one day, and we are at Christmas dinner at R's house and he comes to us saying he thinks his tooth came out. Sure enough...MIA. We never did find it..I was kind of bummed about that. So the Tooth Fairy made a visit to our house on the heels of Santa.

I am avoiding the depressing job of taking the tree down. I need to, but it is so cozy and I enjoy it so much. Maybe this weekend.

E and B bought the new years license's for Tucker and Moose. 25 bucks a piece. Jan 1st they bump the fee to 50 bucks a piece...what a scam. Anyway, all legal for another year.

This year I hope B finds a good job that makes him happy. In the meantime, he can do openings for DSP. It's good money but only lasts so long.

Our dryer took a poop, so we need to come up with about 60 bucks to fix it. Meanwhile off to the laundromat we go again to dry clothes. UGH.

I have a feeling I can't describe, but I sense big changes this year..for all of us. I only hope they are good ones.