Monday, January 16, 2012

January. Cold. Endless.Gray. Solitariness.

Midway point for the longest month of the least for me. I have had a chest flu. Work is slow. Knitting, knitting and more knitting for me. At least I have been able to turn a hobby into a money maker. Some photographer friends of mine are starting to buy my knits.

D bought me a car starter for Christmas, and I am loving every minute of it! I hate the cold.

E celebrated 21 yrs on the 6th. We had a great time. H is next. She is the big 18 on the 26th. We have not decided what we will be doing yet.

Time marches on. I wonder at times where it goes, and at times wonder if it could go much slower. I feel old, and miss my kids even when I am in the same room with them. I think Mother Nature is finally catching up with me and my emotions. It seems as if with my first 3 kids officially grown there is this great unknown for me. I am scared. I don't know how to be without them. I love W and J, but I don't know how to be me without J, E, and H. I think about losing my mom and it takes my breath. I miss my sister. She is working full time now and has one in college. So many changes so very fast, and all at the same time. Has me turned upside down. Such is life. Need to catch up on my photo editing....will back track later. Lots of good stuff to post.

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